Who Am I And What I Will Be??

Hello guys....

  Well... here lemme tell you a little bit about me, even though it's quite hard for me, 'cause I don't know where to start, little confused hehe 😊My full name is Camelia manalu, you can call me amel, I have 4 beautiful sisters and 1 handsome brother, I come from North Sumatra which part Tarutung and right now I live in pekanbaru which part jalan riau, gang raya.

   I graduated from senior high school 1 parmonangan, you may not get used to hear the name of this village.This village is located in north tapanuli, north Sumatra province (Medan). When i was in high school,  i was active at the student  council and scout,  I have also been a school representative for the national science Olympics twice, LCC once. I love to try many new things but up till now i'm never going deep into them, i'm still discovering which one i'm gonna choose to be concentration and i can playing guitar a little😂

   And now I am studying at one of the University in pekanbaru, that's it University  lancang kuning, faculty of teachers and education, majoring in english. Most of my friends and the lectures at the unilak asked me why I was so far away from Medan to pekanbaru just for college? There are many good University in Medan, why here? Why and why😂
Yassh That's exactly the question.

   Oke i'll tell you, it's a long story .After i finished senior high scholl, I signed up for a SNMPTN, Chemical engineering majoring at USU. But unfortunately i failed, this did not break my spirit, I kept fighting to enter to universitas sumatera utara (USU), i signed up again in SBMPTN and then i took the test, and do you know? I failed again 😢.

  At that time I decided to sign up one of the private universities in Medan, Universitas prima indonesia, But my parents say to me like this: " You doesn't regret not trying again, but how about next year? ". I finally decided to take my parents' advice, and then for a few months I followed tuition classes. In april, i registered again at 2018 SBMPTN And again i failed,  i failed for the third time,  it really hit me hard i feel useless, could not boast  my parents. I do lost hope, i did't know where my next step was, my classmates had gone far while i was still stuck at one point. Since then i became a person who always worries about everything, being a person who always worries about what people judge me especially my friends. But i'm grateful to have parents who always support me,  reawakening my fighting spirit that has been lost.

  After that, my sister which has wandered for a long time in pekanbaru called me, she said that there was a University quite close to her home, and she asked me " would you like to study here?" , without thingking too long i was immediately answered "of course yes".

   The next day i went to pekanbaru , and enrolled at the University lancang Kuning. Here i was confused again, apparently there was no chemical enginering major at University Lancang Kuning (Unilak), what major should i choose? . As a last choice, i chose english major, honestly i didn't like this major at the time. And purely the past two semesters I still remain questioning this to my self,   is my passion here? a wrong major?

   After i was in semester 3, my mind was wide open since i heard some motivations from my lecture, mam Herlinawati who teaches the subject of Model dan pendekatan pembelajaran, she said like this "straighten your intention, don't live in a dream world, live in the real world.  Dont waste time just thingking are you choose wrong major, wake up! Wake up!  " i dont know why these words are like magic for me  😂

  My parents also always say like this to me "finish what you have chosen,  love the proces,  maybe God put you there, your fortune there. Everything  will be alright at the end,  if it isn't alright,  then it's not the end.😊🙏 and now i have started to like english, even though my english skill is still messy,  my grammar is still very bad,  but i'm sure and believe i can speak fluent in English. Hopefully one day i'll have a chance to have scholarship like my friends did.

  Oke guys that's all about my self, maybe many people out there who have the same experience like me, hopefully this post can change your mindset as well as motivation from lecture and parents who can change my mindset.
THANK YOU 😊😊